Who Woulda Thought?

I've really come to love it here at Santa Cruz. I don't know what it is: the weather, the beach, the forest, the people, or maybe a combination of all four. Regardless, it rocks. And I've officially spent all weekend at the beach. Sweet!
Also, I really love sitting around naked. In my room, of course. There's nothing like a cold shower and nudity, consecutively, of course.

Day From Hell

That is what today was supposed to be, except it wasn't too bad. I was mildly prepared for my midterms. My goal is simply to pass these classes now, and by passing, I mean some sort of B. I had chem first, and then calculus. After calc, my friends and I who are also in these classes went to the beach! We played some fun beach volleyball for two hours. Then I had to go back to meet my mom and my brother for dinner. My friends were going to drop me off at the restaurant, but then asked me if they could eat with us! I called my mom and asked and she said yes. Anyway, my friends like my mom, and my mom likes my friends. Then I went back to my apartment and showered. I took some NyQuil to knock me out because I am sick and tired and I have work tomorrow that I might call in sick for depending on how sick I feel. Bad sentence, bad sentence, bad sentence. Then I said oh, what the hell, you are done with midterms and you are tired. So I smoked a bowl, and here I am, typing a blog high as fuck. Now I will go to bed. NyQuil + marijuana, WOO!
Also, for those of you who are curious, it is 11:21PM right now. In 39 minutes, it will be my two year anniversary with Brad! Yay!

Lately

I've been struggling through this past week. I've cried a lot. I've spent a lot of time thinking and writing out my emotions. It hasn't been easy, but I think things will work out for the better. I don't know where to go from here, but the only direction is up. I hope the right path is chosen, and that things will go in my favor. I need to hope; I need to believe to get me through the days.
I am so incredibly thankful for the amazing friends that I've made who have been here for me this past week, from coming over and listening to me be a giant mess, hugging me when I'm sobbing uncontrollably, reassuring me that things will work themselves out, to making me smile. Even if it feels like I don't have anything, I have that, and that means so much.
Now, I'm off to study for my chemistry and calculus midterms tomorrow.

Things I Love

- See's candies (Scotchmallow!)
- free See's candies samples
- beach
- perfect weather
- cold water feeling good in the sun
- sunshine
- volleyball
- tide pools
- cool friends
- sea anemones
- today

Current Shoe Obsessions

From left to right... Christian Louboutin, Givenchy, Manolo Blahnik, Fendi, Christian Louboutin, Fendi, Fendi, Chloe, Chloe, Chloe, Fendi, Christian Dior, Louis Vuitton.
I don't know why, but I've been incredibly shoe obsessed lately. Probably because you can never have too many shoes, and shoes are the exclamation point on a FIERCE! outfit. I sort of have an obsession with cage, gladiator, studs, and shiny. Oh and anything dark looking. Wish I had money because I would SO get the Givenchys (second from left on the top row) and the Diors. I love, love, love. Seriously. The Givenchys are something a female Batman would wear. Or at least that's what I imagine. Indestructible, badass-looking armor, sexy shoes. Haha. And the Diors (second from right on the bottom row) are pretty self explanatory. The studs & the corset-style lacing take me back to my Dark Days. Except not really, I just think they're incredibly badass. And maybe the Louis Vuittons too because the heel is pretty sweet. Yesss.
Also, I spent $101 on eBay today. Oops? Yes, oops is right.

Things I am Thinking About Today

1. See's candy! Specifically, Scotchmallow, the best candy known to mankind. It's the perfect combination of chocolate, ooeygooey caramel & marshmallow-y delicious, & awesome. Runners up are Mayfair (chocolate, cherry bits & nuts) and blueberry truffle. I am so craving some.
2. UO Risky Business Sunglasses aka Ray Ban Wayfarer knockoffs. I am having a sunglasses withdrawal. I've lost most of mine, or they're at home. Need new ones in lots of cool colors!
3. True Religion Joey Flares. Love True Religions and I love the Joey Flares. Been stalking eBay for a decent/cheap pair because I've realized that everything I buy brand new, I rarely wear. Plus, I'm waiting for these in the Medium Savannah wash from my mom for my birthday. Might as well get accustomed to them before then! Also I love the way they fit and look on my butt. Awesome.
4. eBay. Like I said, I've been on eBay all day for various designer jeans at cheaper prices, and some random purses that I can't afford (ie. Chanel, Dior, Balenciaga).
5. Aldo's new Soito mesh-y, semi-Stella McCartney knockoff pumps. I think the picture says it all. I'm in the market for new shoes anyway. Actually, correction. I'm the market for new anything.
6. Aldo's new Mauceri cut out pumps. I like cutouts and little studs. Enough said.
7. Polaroids! I like polaroids. I'm afraid to use all my film though. Polaroids are always awesome.
8. Boyfriend! 39 days until I see him for 17 days. I'm super excited. Plus our 2 year anniversary is 13 days from now. Also super exciting.
9. Calculus for Biology and Medicine by Claudia Neumhauser. I hate calc. I've been doing it all weekend.
10. Chemical Principles by Stephen Zumdahl. I am starting my chem homework now.
11. Nautical/ocean/beach-y jewelry. Super cute. I'm definitely eyeing a few. I like the locket one and the anchor one. Also, did you know that American Eagle and Aerie have their own separate sections for jewelry? They're the same store! Why not put it in the same section so people don't get confused?
12. Cobian Fiji flip flops. I don't care what people say about their ridiculously overpriced Rainbows; these flip flops are definitely the best and comfiest known to mankind. I'm thinking I might need another pair. Or fifty.
13. The beach/vacation. Self explanatory. Yay!

Wolverine

I saw it today and it was really cool! I don't know the back story or anything about it, but my friends dragged me along to see it. I liked it a lot! I probably wouldn't have liked it if I actually knew it, but who cares! Hugh Jackman is in it, NAKED. Mmmm. So sexy. Tyler Kitsch is in it. Very cute, and Penn Badgley-ish. Ryan Reynolds is in it. Totally cute. Dominic Monahagan is in it. Love him and his cute accent. Lots of nifty cool mutant powers that I wish I could have. Oh, and did I mention Hugh Jackman NAKED??? Yesss. The movie was cool. I did not expect it to be so.

Today, I also got awkwardly hit on by a high school gaming nerd. Mind you, not your typical gamer though. He was one of those socially inept, but tries really hard, but can't really win at life because he plays Dungeons & Dragons and Warhammer type things and loves them. It was reaaaally awkward. And semi-funny.
I also scarfed down a delicious burger in five minutes so we could run to the movie theatre because my friends decided to spend forty minutes in the D&D/Warhammer/nerd games store.
I played Lord of the Rings: Return of the King with Dave and I realized that my skills have gone to shit. I used to be really good at this game. Now, I'm not. I also watched "Borat" and I fell asleep about fifteen minutes in.
ALSO, my parents got me a MINIFRIDGE, so I went grocery shopping to stock up on food that people will never eat again because it is LOCKED UP, safe in my room.
YAY!